Soul Notes - Birthday Edition

Published 26 days ago • 1 min read

Hi Reader and hellooo March!

I love the month and this time of year - always feels like renewal and rebirth to me - and it's my birthday month so there's that. 😉

This year I'm turning 65! What??

I've never been one who dreads birthdays and this one is no different. It IS landing a little differently though...

Medicare kicked in this week. I'm now at "retirement age" (although not retiring, thank you very much). And I am apparently officially eligible for Silver Sneakers. I mean... Silver Sneakers.

When did THAT happen? (and I'll totally take advantage of it, btw.)

Here's the thing though - where I thought I'd be at 65 and where I actually am are two completely different places. And that's a good thing.

Younger me had a whole script running about what this chapter was supposed to look like. What I'd have built, who I'd be, how it would all line up. And for a long time I was measuring myself against that script without even realizing it - negotiating my worth against a story I'd written decades ago.

Somewhere along the way I started letting go of what I'd expected - of myself, of others, of the world - and what came in wasn't emptiness. It was freedom. The kind that doesn't need everything to look a certain way to feel okay. Or to feel grounded and home in myself.

The kind that comes from living in the flow.

So here I am. 65, Medicare card in hand, Silver Sneakers and all - freer than I have ever been. And it's the best thing I've ever done for myself.

What about you - is there a story you've been negotiating with that might not read the way it used to?

Just something to sit with over coffee. ☕

With love (and birthday cake),

Kate A. Bares | Soul Integration Method™

Helping You Reclaim Self-Worth + Emotional Freedom!

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